T o t h e d e a t h.

T o t h e d e a t h.
'Cuz today, it seems that nothing matters any more... But, again, to me.


WHY ?


... x) ==> If only I could knew... I'm on the phone with my boyfriend. He threw the phone away to wish an happy birthday to his 10 years old's brother. I can hear them singing... Happy Birthday Ethan ! I wish I had a family, a family full of grand-parents, cousins, uncles and aunties... I can't help regretting this lack in my life. Hm. I obviously can't help talking about my little person neither. I probably should stop, cuz I'm not that interesting, and nobody's gonna read my articles any more. Do you know what's in my mind right now?


♫ HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX - HIM - CIGARETTE - SEX... ♫


Edward. I cried when I saw this movie. It was ages ago, but I still think that it's deeeaaaaadly !! I mean, waoh. Edward I love you - Edward I love you - Edward I love you - Edward I love you - Edward I love you - Edward I love you - Edward I love you - Edward I love you - Edward I love you - Edward I love you - Edward I love you =D


See ya later. I'm bored. xXx
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# Posté le samedi 14 juin 2008 14:17

Modifié le dimanche 15 juin 2008 12:15

=D

=D
Suicidal.... squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze 8D

As one of the coolest guy ever asked me to keep up my blog, I'm baaaaaack ! In SUCH a better mood than I was a few days ago. Why so? ... Well, that's strange, I don't even know. I should be devastated, because today was the last day of one of the best class year I've ever had, but... Actually, I AM devastated. Even if I try not to show it. ... BLA ... I can't help thinking about all the great people I met here, especially the ones like Aymeric or Andrea, who live so far away... BLA ... I'd like to do something really crazy at the end of the year, after my bac de français et de svt (Damn it !!). What about a tattoo? Joanna,we HAVE to do this. A little cherry on the ankle may'be? As a symbol of this AWESOME year and of our friendship of course... I was just thinking... what kind of picture could I put with this note?! Hm. I'll think about that.


We are now the 11th of June, le bac starts tomorrow, and I don't feel like I'm ready AT ALL. What a strange feeling... ... BLA ..... As a little girl, in 6ème, 5ème or even 4ème, I couldn't have pictured myself as the girl I am nowadays. I feel empty. Unhappy. Useless. [ AND fat + ugly, as usual ] . Because I can't work? Because I miss Him? Because I'm gonna lose my freedom in a few days? Dunno. But there's someting sure. ... BLA ..... I've changed. For the BEST and the WORSE !



I'm wearing a bluuuuuuuuuuuuue nail polish x) ... who cares ??
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# Posté le vendredi 30 mai 2008 18:40

Modifié le vendredi 13 juin 2008 10:00

Pathetic.

Pathetic.


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Look at this girl. Yeah, that girl over there. Doesn't she look... bored? Indifferent to everything? Biaised? Well, yes, she does... Hum. I didn't know I could look as snob while looking at myself in a mirror, wearing a Juicy Couture dress (what? Did I say anything wrong??).

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I don't know what to think. I dumped this boy, and now I'm thinking that I probably shouldn't have. He was so nice, so cute, so ... he cared about me. But... so does the man of my life. Anyway, I'm not here to talk about my feelings, but to talk about... me? Hm, that sounds a little bit presomptious. I don't even know what's the point. Actually, I might just have wanted to put a picture of me on that fucking website... So, what do you think?

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... What the fuck am I doing here?? Writing bullshit about my life, about me... I'm sure that nobody cares. Actually, I wanted to apologize myself... Loads people told me that I had changed. Because of my new freedom? the people I met? the things I did? I have noooo clue. I needed this.

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Wait, I know. I just wish I was the kind of girl... you see, rich, gorgeous, thin. Coke, cigarettes. Drugs. Party-girl. But I'm not. Look at me, it's pathetic! A small fat girl, not even wealthy enough to buy all the stuff in Brown Thomas. I wanna become sexy, gorgeous, thin, wealthy, and famous. What a bad dream, uh? Well, it's mine... Let's see what I'm gonna turn into now.

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# Posté le mercredi 21 mai 2008 18:35

Modifié le jeudi 22 mai 2008 18:44

Gosh... What a feeling !

What's wrong with me? I can't handle this any more. I feel like my heart has too many things inside, too much people. What the hell is going on in here?? I'm just a monster. I feel like I was playing with the other's feelings. Call me a bitch, I don't think that I deserve anything better. I miss Him, but I so would like to meet Him too... My head is goin' to explode if I don't try to do anything to stop thinking.

× |[ ♥ ]| ×

... I have always been the Dr Love of all my friends, even if I had absolutely no experience (until now). Everybody used to come to me, and ask for help, for answers. I knew exactly what to say, and how they had to act. But... as soon as I'm concerned, as soon as I'm the one who needs answers and a piece of advice, I can't help myself. I don't know what to do. I'm lost. A little girl. I wish I could ask somebody, a very close friend, but I can't... Unfair, isn't it?

× |[ ♥ ]| ×

Anyway. I talked to someone, in the end. Even if she's not my closest friend ever, she's got experience, more than I have (I just can't believe you're only fourteen girl. SLUT xP). I think I know what to do now. I know ... I have to break somebody's heart. I can't cheat on him any longer. 'Cuz I love Him. I do. Now and forever. I do. I want him. I belong to him. Now and forever. I do.
Gosh... What a feeling !
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# Posté le lundi 19 mai 2008 09:30

Modifié le jeudi 22 mai 2008 18:44

Ma folie <3 Ma vie <3 Ma chérie <3 Mon amante <3 Ma puce <3 Mon adorée <3

Ma folie <3 Ma vie <3 Ma chérie <3 Mon amante <3 Ma puce <3 Mon adorée <3
Well, it had to be done someday, so let's go guys! Anyway, I couldn't have created something without talking about Her. Who is she? The most fantastic, funny, sweet, generous girl I've ever met. I swear. She's everything to me! She's my best friend, my lover, my confident, my sister. She's always been there, since I was born, and I hope she will be by my side forever. Nothing could break our friendship. Our love. We have so many memories in common! Corsica especially, isn't that right hun'? ;)
Anyway. Most of you, poor readers, won't understand a WORD about what I'm saying. Indeed as you've probably noticed, I'm writing in english. Did I ever tell you I was living in Ireland? Well ... Now you know! But whatever, this isn't about ME.
My love, my heart, my soul : let me tell you how MUCH I love you, and how MUCH I need you. You mean so much to me, I couldn't live without knowing that you're here to support me in my everyday life.


Margot, I love you. Now and forever. I would die for you.


Margot, I love you (L')
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# Posté le dimanche 11 mai 2008 14:03

Modifié le jeudi 22 mai 2008 18:50